This attention-seeking strategy is not doing me any good
Rather, it's coming over me
I realized it's out of my control already
I stopped and looked at myself in shame
How did I come to this state?
I think to myself
Why do I ever need them to fill up this gap?
And why when they are there for me, I feel like running away?
What's wrong with me?
I tried to figure it out
And I got what I think is true.
They are not what I need...
I needed time for myself
to love myself
So much left undone, unattended to
Yet, I've got so much time to be bothered on those that's not at all important
I'll continue trying to love myself
I'll be happy, indefinitely.
what we could have been, 5:46 PM.